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JUST TO BLOG BOUT A REALLY FUNNY THING.
Yesterday before gng down to Fuchun Sec, Deanna and me were waiting for Wirda. SOOOOO. I was asking her like what Wirda would be wearing and stuff. And I was like, imagining Wirda wearing hiphop clothing, with all d blingblings. AND THEN, gng up to us and be all like: YO YO YO DENISE AND DEANNA. Whassup man! And then Wirda will kiss one of her blingblings and go: PEACE! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. LAUGHED LIKE SHIT CAN. MY GODDDD. LOL!
OH AND JUST NOW STUDYING WITH EUGENE WEIARNG LILIAN EUNICE AND LUTFI WAS SUPER FUN! We saw Shawn Lee can! He has a girlfriend, I think. Pffft):
REALLY CANNOT WAIT FOR TMR. Although all of us are still pissed off at her.
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Just to start this post on a happier note, gng out to study with Eunice Lilian Eugene etc later, and its band practice and D Prestige tmr :D
I PROMISED ONE OF MY FRIENDS THAT I WOULDNT HARP ON THIS MATTER ALRDY BUT I JUST CANNOT STAND IT. Thats why I'm sitting down. HAHAHAHA okay super anticlimax.
I hope this will be my last post bout this whole affair CAUSE I HATE BLOG QUARRELS. Really. Pfffft.
People tend to see faults in others, but not themselves.
Before I start to rant, I want to say something else.
To Lilian,
NOW I FINALLY KNOW HOW YOU FELT IN D PAST. Damn this shit alright. To me, no matter how many times I apologise to you bout what happened in d past, I will never be able to forgive myself. I dont know why but seeing you just hits me with a pang of guilt.
To everyone else whose intentions I have misunderstood,
I AM SORRY.
ITS BEEN SUCHA LONG TIME SINCE I'VE BEEN SO ANGRY. And perhaps disappointed and even hurt.
Imagine this scenario:
You and your girlfriends are having lunch when you see a group of really hot guys playing poker. HAHA. So d group of you decide to walk up to them to ask for their numbers. Then, friend A suggests that d whole plan should be cancelled as she feels that walking up to them just like that would be utterly embarrassing. In addition, d group of guys are busy with their own stuff. So you guys decide to leave d place.
BUT! When you're walking past d table, friend B starts to take her time and stares at d group of guys FOR NO APPARENT REASON. Not surprisingly, that gets d attention of d guys, and they motion to you and your girlfriends to go over to them so as to find out what you guys want. D rest of d friends, feeling bad for interrupting their game, and just a teeny weeny embarrassed alrdy. In d end, friend B walks towards them and friend A leaves d scene. CAN YOU FUCKING BLAME FRIEND A FOR DOING THAT? She alrdy said that she didnt want to do whatever they planned in d first place! Pffft.
Then after that, friend A asks friend B nicely if she managed to get whatever she wanted. Friend B snaps back at A by saying that she didnt get it because d guys were busy. OKAY HELLO?! So self-contradictory please. Whatever.
Friends? Is that what you call us?
I'm sorry, but I dont think friends lie to each other. You told me you apologised nicely to her, and so I stood on your side. FOR GOODNESS SAKE YOU TOLD ME THAT SHE SNAPPED AT YOU FIRST SO I EVEN FOUGHT FOR YOU. And guess what I found out? D apology msg was nowhere near sincere. So much for apologising nicely. In case you didnt know, you sounded so fucking sarcastic. I saw d msges alright. I SAW THEM.
Friends dont 'forget' to inform each other of their plans until d last minute. Friends dont use each other as tools to kill time. Friends dont go arnd spreading rumours bout each other which arent true. Friends dont fabricate d truth. Friends dont spill secrets.
YOU CRIED D OTHER TIME, I CRIED LAST NIGHT. Now we're even arent we?
You say that you had enough of d teasing. BUT DID YOU EVEN TELL US? NO. Do you expect us to be able to read your mind? I'm sorry, but I'm no Jean Grey. When I have enough d d teasing, I will tell my friends to stop. I WILL TELL THEM NICELY. And they do stop.
I'm sorry, but I have had enough of all this shit. Constantly trying to lighten d atmosphere but all I get from you is a cold stare. But when a guy appears, all your worries seem to evaporate and you get so high. One of your excuses for your change in mood? YOU WANT TO PEE. WOW! Thats a really reasonable explanation. Perfectly logical. Do you even know that your mood changes according to d number of guys arnd you?
Oh while I'm on d top of guys, dont you think you went a little too overboard with d whole dumping-HIM thing? Just because of our comments that he isnt really good-looking, you just throw him away like that. JUST LIKE THAT. Dont you feel even a little bit of guilt? He's so nice to you! You treat him as if he's a piece of shit. You just take, take and take, BUT HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT OF GIVING?
Last but not least, I have had enough of d whole wanting-people-to-accompany you matter. No one wants to be alone, alright. But it doesnt mean that you have to force people to go out of their way just to accompany you. You say that you had enough alrdy? Let me tell you something, ME TOO. Just because I'm always smiling and giving in to everyone else doesnt mean that I'm a fucking pushover.
I dont really give a damn bout whatever you say bout me, as long as you do it face-to-face. Dont go arnd telling lies to everyone else and ruining their impressions of me, or to put in more appropriately, US. No matter what happens between us, I DONT WANT MY GOOD FRIENDS TO BE PULLED INTO THIS MATTER ALRIGHT. Its just between us for goodness sake.
I wont force my friends to take a stand, because I think thats just unnecessary. I still do trust people like Renjie and Eugene even though they're your good friends too, BECAUSE I STILL THINK THEY'RE SUPERB.
Oh, and thanks Deanna for your lame msges last night. SUPER CUTE CAN. And Eugene too :D
Love,
Denise.
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